"Failure is not the worst thing in the world. The very worst thing is not to try."

Aku dapat quote ni drp one of motivational sites kat internet. Don't know who quoted it first but i think ayat ni seolah olah memberi aku semangat untuk teruskan niat aku untuk cuba nasib di tempat baru. Lately i've been mocked by my collegues for keep going in and out of the big boss's room just to tender my resignation. I don't know what happened to me but everytime after i left his room i would cancel my resignation or application for transfer. Senang kene saiko agaknya aku ni. Jiwa lembut bak kata opismate aku sorang tu. Hampeh betul. But this time oh tidak. I have to be strong. Strong enough not to fall for his words anymore. Lesson learned, never reveal the company that u are going to work for to your current boss. He will tricked you into things that you could not imagine. Never listen to any of his bluff if there is no black and white in front. If there is, think twice whether it is sufficient or good enough.

To make a decision whether to go or not really keeps me wide awake at night for the past few days. I keep on thinking whether i can adapt with the new culture where the Jap and other races are there, since i've been working with one race for all my life, well most of it la. One or two doesn't count as majority.

So kali ni aku nekad. Now i know why offer yang lepas tu aku rasa macam susah jer nak accept. I got a better one. There is one statement, aku tak ingat la ayat penuh dia tapi bunyi dia lebih kurang gini la... "Bila kita berdoa kadang kadang kita tak dapat apa yang kita hajati waktu itu tapi lambat laun allah penuhi dengan memberi yang lebih baik". Well the exact words are not like that definitely tapi maksud dia lebih kurangnya kadang kadang kita sendiri tak pasti apa yang kita nak tapi petunjuk dari allah memberi kita ruang untuk membuat keputusan yang sewajarnya dan bila kita dah bersedia allah memberi kita rezeki yang lebih baik yang kita sendiri tak sangka sangka. Yang pastinya Allah Maha mengetahui.